To soon to move on?

so the last post I had on here was about crazy bounce.. that was so funny right? lol.. Anyway so since then thanks giving has come and gone. We weren't going to do anything as a family because it was only going to be my sister my parents and I but... My mom cooked and fed for a army.. overbord alittle but she wanted the whole thanksgiving feeling so she did. After thanksgiving was.... BLACK FRIDAY I took this year off and stayed home with the kids... There wasn't anything I HAD to have so I stayed back and went shopping friDAY .
   So that leads me to Friday, My guy interest and I spent the day shopping which I have to admit that I was super nerves about that because it was a full day to get to know each other and for me thats a huge deal... It went way better then expected and that night we both decided to make us exclusive with out the boyfriend/girlfriend title. It works for him and I but other people have questions.. they don't get it.. and honestly im not sure how to explain it.. In my words we are getting to know each other we are STARTING  a relationship but we aren't looking outside of us for a relationship. So .. is it to soon? its been 2 months since jon and I split I honestly don't know. I do now that me and david are taking it slow and if it doesn't work out thats fine but I would live to give it a try :)

so back to the shopping!!!! I bought this amazing purse from new york and company... I LOVE PURSES! some people love shoes.. I love purses! so I was super excited that when I walked in everything was half off... I was looking around and saw this purse from across the store and I was like ... I want that.. so I got it.. and a few other gifts for friends and family.. David bought a new wardrobe no joke he really took advantage of the deals, but there were some deals you couldn't pass up like 15 dollar jeans at old navy what?!?

yesterday my friend had a baby shower and that was fun, I had bought her a pink and brown bouncy seat and made a diaper cake!!! loved the diaper cake. It turned out great!

ITS A FAT GIRL AND A BABY!

Another day has come and passed, Today was a pretty huge on for me, I haven't been sleeping lately so I stayed up and talked with some friends till 4am and then went to sleep and woke up at 9am. I had alot of things to do today so I had my self motivated as soon as I woke up. I had to go to the bank, a few stores getting things ready for the diaper cake I was making for a friend ( TURNED OUT AMAZING!). I packed my nephew up and dragged him with.. he loved it he loves going bye bye with anyone. So we went to the bank and got a sucker of course! then stopped by a friends hi for a quick hi! and went on with our day.

    After I came home and laid the kids down for a nap I made my diaper cake.. I Can't wait to post pictures but I can't just yet ( I don't want her to see) My mom came home today she has been gone for a week now, It  was strange to have her gone, My parents went to the cabin to go hunting.. well my mom read trashy novels and my dad went hunting. anyway.. off subject... story of my life lol!

I spent the night taking my 3 nieces ages 2,4,7 to crazy bounce.. geesh.. well I spent the evening with them. I took them for dinner then the mall then crazy bounce and out for cookies after :) can you say crazy! lol there had to of been 50-60 kids at this crazy bounce and .. as people see im not the smallest person in the world.. and i was carrying this almost 2 year old up the inflatable slides.. can you say WORK OUT! .. not to mention the boys behind me yelling.. "ITS A FAT GIRL AND A BABY.. ITS GUNNA BE A WHILE" honestly.. where are there parents and what are they teaching there kids to have them think its okay for them to say something.. I was like.. WHAT! anyway.. overall the night was good. Tomorrow I'm going to clean.. and relax I'm so ready for a day to MYSELF!

Well, I'm not sure who reads this.. if anyone does.. I hope you have a great night!

Daylight brings sunshine and pushes sadness away,  When the sun rises I am greatful for everything I have, I have family friends a job a roof over my head and I have support, not many people have all of those. Today I have my 2 nieces over and im watching my nephew and niece so my sister can nap because she works 2nd shift and there working 12 hours.. thats alot!  here is a photo of my family.. hope you guys are having a great day and enjoy the last few days of fall :(

A breath of fresh air

Hi, I'm a new blogger, I was introduced to doing this a few months ago but didn't feel like I had much to write about. I have recently moved home and now live with my parents after 6 years of being out of the home. I just broke off a 4 year relationship.. just walked away. I am not sure what I'm doing or really how I'm doing things I am living on the seat of my pants per say and seeing what life has for me.

I am a 23 year old who is very excited to close a chapter in my life and open a new one. I work full time as a nanny for my sister and its probably one of the most amazing and rewarding jobs I have had. I used to work full time as a director in a childcare center and quit that job due to distance of driving and conflict of interest.

I want to go back to school and start completely FRESH but everything takes time and that's what I need to do .. is start FRESH probably one of the hardest things I will do in my life. I don't know what I'm doing and I'm new to this whole thing so hang in there and enjoy what I write I guess.

So as nights fall I call it my "emo" time. I put the kids to bed.. clean up the house and dwell on my day..and life, sometimes I youtube sad songs and cry, but that's where I am and it will pass but anyway.. I'm ranting.. but the song I was listening to was call here comes goodbye from rascal flatts there was a saying a old man had said before the song that made me think. he said "sometime life feels like chapters of goodbyes", I thought that was sweet and so true, I have lost so many people in my life. My mom has lost her 2 close friends already .. my grandfather,both grandmothers,best friend,cousin,friends from school.. so doesn't life seem like its always goodbyes, I know some people say its a see you later but really.. see you alot later, Amy died when she was 10 really?!? later? sometimes its just not fair.

anyway, here are some rantings from me, Not sure if anyone is going to read it but its here for anyone to have the chance to.

another day, another time.
april